COSTUMERS OF THE WORLD UNITE!

this was on the wall opposite my house door on monday morning. it's made my week.

losing my gruntles, learning new things, and searching to find my skin

well now i've been spammed too. so i changed the settings on the comment page, hopefully no one else will try to sell me dating websites.
it's been a busy couple days, in tech rehearsal for BORDERTOWN CAFE a hundred miles south of here. i think i like my work, i really wish i could go back tonight or later in the week to see it more complete, but i have to work cirque shifts instead. i've done some cool distressing, learned some new models as well as new techniques... do you know what a farmer who's been combining looks like as opposed to one who's been in the dairy barn? yeah, me either, but the lighting designer's also a farmer, so that's been invaluable. baby oil is my new best friend, and anyone who's ever doubted the veracity of their teacher's warnings about how pervasive dye granuales are should (not) try to use Rit Dye in a kitchen trash can in their bathtub. not recommended, probably not healthy either, but i really had no choice that i could see. it's raining, i couldn't even do it outside. but successful. and if you're wondering, comet makes a no scratch bleach solution paste cleanser that's pretty good. between the dye and the bleach, i think i've had all the toxins i get for the week.
still waiting on word about the costume design assistant position at operatheatre of st.louis, but i did call them and learn that the process has been delayed (by the production mgr's honeymoon --at least it's a happy reason), and they'll know in two or three weeks...
what i really need to do is find a little more stability in myself to face where i am. it's where i wanted to be, but i'm so antsy and anxious that i can't seem to settle into my skin. i just want to be alright with myself in my space and don't understand why i'm having so much trouble with this. sometimes it makes me feel like i'm crazy. there's so much here to feel good about, and it seems like a lot of the time i'm worried about things i can't control or trying to predict the future instead of being in the moment. it frustrates me...

there's no place like home

perfect album to listen to in a crowded airport terminal where there's been no electricity all morning? GREEN DAY'S AMERICAN IDIOT.
my long weekend in st.louis was divine --the botanical gardens are amazing, not to be missed if you have the chance. the zoo's great too, and it's free (as is the museum and other attractions in forest park), but even with the admission fee taken into account the gardens are well worth it. and you can see the top of jacob's building from inside! we walked through the zoo on saturday, they have an elephant who's expecting a baby any day now, and i saw my first anteater that i can remember... but my favorite are always the hippos. in st. louis they have a plexiglass portion to their environment, and you can watch them swim. we ate well, we usually do... fabulous pizza you should check out too should the opportunity present itself.
now i'm back at the spyhouse with hummus and pita. i have quite a shopping and distressing list before tech starts for BORDERTOWN CAFE on monday, and i finally got shifts with cirque (gate patrol, basically). so it looks like a busy time coming up. i'm glad for it.
here are a few more promised pictures:

HELLO DOLLY!




YOU'RE A GOOD MAN, CHARLIE BROWN

(look! his scarf was wired so he always appeared windswept)


(the costume shop built these dresses and painted all the trim on the shirts, the dots on sally's dress, the bow's on lucy's. and jacob made snoopy's tag for me...good to have a metal smith handy!)

...and HOME, in all senses of the word:

this is my workspace as seen from the living room (really one long space divided into one third workspace, two thirds living room. this photo taken from my futon. while sitting on the futon, if one turns to the left, the kitchen is visible:



from the palomarin trail on labor day:

at a loss.

i had to say good bye to a friend today

COOL!

ok... not sure i've grasped the labeling them part. but i'll see what i can do....
the lake pics are l'homme dieu...then the theatre up there, the lodge (meals, rehearsal, costume storage upstairs), the costume shop from the outside, and then some photos of THE DIARY OF ANNE FRANK: Channaukah; Anne bored on the couch, being 13; and the entrance into the secret annex, introductions being performed. I'll get the HELLO DOLLY and YOU'RE A GOOD MAN CHARLIE BROWN in the right place so i can post those next. and i'll take some in my apartment tonight so i can show you that too!!! i'm really excited about this.

photo?

i'm pretty sure i've finally figured this out.
and i'm definitly sure it's embarrassingly simple.
right.

i'm just gonna post this to see if it worked, and then i'll try again with more. it's my mom and me at minnehaha falls here in minneapolis.

a beautiful day to fly...

it's windy and clear and 75 here in beautiful lake wobegon...no, wait, urban minneapolis.
according to northwest's website, my flight is on schedule. we'll see about that i suppose.
things are good here, i helped some friends paint and move yesterday, and am sloooowly getting things done in my own place. i'm actually out of space for things to go, so i'm glad to get away from the tile game (remember the car game when you were a kid, with one tile missing and you just had to push things around in the right way to make a picture?) for a couple days. maybe when i come home a solution will present itself. i've only got a few days to figure it out before people come over for a housewarming party (intentional deadline set by myself, otherwise i'd have lived half unpacked till christmas)....
anway...i feel like i had something to say but i don't remember what it was. so i'll go. =) have a good day, happy labor day, let me hear from you!